Thursday, January 14, 2010

Letting go

Letting go. What an abstract concept. Once again, an idea that is talked about by people as if it a natural thing to do. It seems so unnatural to me that somebody would drop their only defenses, protections that were placed there in response to an attack on their self at one point in life or another. Anger, control, absolute independence, promiscuity, substance abuse, and supression of feelings to name a few of the most common defenses. It is kind of similar to a person running through a jungle, naked, with no weapons to protect themselves from a potential attack. Why would somebody do that? Those that have done this successfully, would probably say that it was the most freeing experience that they ever had, and would do it again. This is a rare possibility! Forgiveness? Is it really a good idea for a person to open themselves up to such a vulnerable state with no protection from potentially devastating pain that accompanies the relationship jungle? I have pondered these questions, and what I am realizing is that wherever there is happiness to be had, there is a risk. They go hand in hand in order to maintain a balance ans to keep people humbled. If a person chooses not to allow themselves to be vulnerable enough to experience the unpredictable weather and poisoness snakes in the jungle, they can never experience the beauty of the hidden waterfalls and exotic animals in the jungle either. They go hand in hand. With the good comes the bad. Is it worth it to you? It is a scary step to take, one that many people have never taken and never will. It is a huge risk,and takes a willingness to realize that even if you experience hurt and pain, you will be able to stand back up again, learning from that experience, gaining the ability utilize the strength that lies within you, to figure out a way. Nobody can take that strength away, and it can only get stronger through experiences.
Everyday is a new day they say. I try to wake up each day, and realize that it is a fresh start, living in the present day and not in the pain of the past or the "what ifs" of the future, realizing the past is a learning experience, and the future holds was much as I will allow it to offer to me. Some days it is easier than others to have this attitude, but I will not stop remembering that anything is possible, and knowing that there is a such thing as waterfalls as well as poisoness snakes that I might encounter, both of which I will embrace and manage when they present themselves to me. Welcome to the jungle, use flash photography at all times, and never keep your hands in the vehicle! Enjoy the ride!

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